The number one problem in my life right now, I shit thee not, is that I am not having enough fun.
Here is proof:
- I can’t stop cleaning my apartment: there’s always something to clean
- I keep a food journal
- I keep a journal for lists
- Today when I walked into a tree I yelled at the tree
- When someone tells a joke I cannot hear it and I continue with my serious thoughts
- I am actively trying to have more fun
- I am writing a blog post about having fun
- I only read cookbooks now
- I keep listening to the soundtrack from the movie “The Hours” over and over
- Everyone keeps telling me to have more fun
Normally this wouldn’t matter, but I am an actor and yeah, much of the time, having fun is part of my job.
I started this blog way back in 2012 as a way of taking care of my depression. It was an outlet. In the nearly 5 years I’ve been maintaining it, it has gone through many phases. Tracking moods, documenting experiences, telling silly stories, writing reviews, and most recently: Updates on my acting career, which has proved to be the most boring thing I’ve written about… what??
My acting teacher, Anthony Abeson, has been trying to infuse us with more fun. “Wild Theatricality,” he calls it, because somehow, it’s been lost.
“Are we nuts? Broke AND not having fun?” He recently Tweeted.
I, like many actors, am worried about doing things “right.” Which is, you guessed it, NO FUN.
However, this isn’t my actor website. This is my personal blog. So it doesn’t have to be organized or professional or have a fucking logo or anything. It just has to be a place where I can dump my brain out for a bit and sort things through.
And sometimes I just find the craziest things in there!!